big sighs of relief

Two major things happened today.

Most importantly, Daniel is apparently still with us. He made it through the night and I haven't yet received *that* dreaded phone call. From what I understand, he's in a form of suspended animation. He's on a ventilator. He's also heavily sedated so that the ventilator can do its job with no interference. I've been trying to imagine what it would be like if my whole job were to breathe, or allow a mechanical device to help me breathe. Breath in. Pause. Breath out. Pause. Each breath a minuscule but crucial step toward the possibility of coming back.

Of course, this is our job every day, but one of many, and one we take for granted nearly all the time. Breath in. Breath out. Breath in. I'm hoping that in the coming days, weeks, and months, Daniel will add more jobs. For now, he's "stable," though, a very good thing. I think I'll hope for some more "stable" for a while.


On a completely different note, I appear to have a new job. My partner, B, will not be coming with me (sniff!!!), but it sounds like I'll get to work part-time (after some intense ramp-up time) and we'll find a virtual B, not as good as the original B, though. Not bad. Not bad. I'm amazed at how hard we worked to get this job, and I'm very impressed at how hard the people at the company worked to get us. I hope they're pleased with the results.

Oh. The company is Idiom, a "mature startup" with fewer than 50 employees, though they're trying to grow. Interesting product, fascinating and enthusiastic people.


With these two pieces of news, I feel like a tremendous weight has been lifted, like there's some new energy somewhere in there. Hooray. And onward.